Emo thought of the night: Feelings make you weak.
And having people who are super nice to you, makes you weak too.
The more people are nice to me, the more dependent I am on them. And when I find myself doing that, I get pretty irritated with myself.
I wish to go back to how I was. With the feelings under lock and being the one who was depended on. More or less self-sufficient. Yups.
On the side, snuggling is like a drug. You just keep wanting more *runs to bolster* It’ll have to do.