because of you, i stopped documenting my feelings and thoughts. everything i wrote, you said it will sprout rumors. and so, i stopped.
the blog was not what it used to be. i shifted so many times that some entries got lost on the way. now that everything is more or less over, i regretted it.
regretted giving in. but that’s not important. the biggest regret was i cant read back at those thoughts. evaluate those thoughts. laugh at them. be motivated by them. i can’t.
because of you i stop documenting them. trying to protect you that was what i was trying to do. how stupid?