Okay, I haven’t logged in for such a long time that I forgot my password. Then I forgot the email address this account is tied to. Then I forgot the password tied to that email address. Major panic mode. But, all is well. I’m here! 😀
Nothing’s change. Still as sotong as ever.
Fun and sensibility. It seems like the last time they coincided in my life was back in secondary school. I had fun and was sensible.
Then came that period. I had ‘fun’. The word is in inverted commas because on paper and probably in other people’s eyes, it’s fun. Booze and parties. Late nights out. I lost my sensibility back then.
If I were to tell you what I did, you might be shock. Cause really. I lost my common sense. My sensibility. I just let go.
Some pretty icky things happened and…the stars were aligned, the wind was right and the whole shingle-jangle. I fell into that dark mood. Emo MAX! I am not talking about ranting. I was downright depressed.
Took about a year and a little bit more before I got to where I am now. The me now…Well..Loads of sensibility. Fun? Not so much. I’m a goody shoes. A girl-next-door. Boring.
I think I am more comfortable this way. I don’t have to think so much or evaluate so much. I’m in control.
But recently, I am getting a little bored of being sensible. Getting a little bored of..well, bored.
I’ve been considering of going back to the ‘fun’ times. Telling myself that maybe this time, I will fare better (FAT HOPE!). Been dipping my toes in.
I don’t know.
This is going nowhere.
I am still (because I know it will change) happy with my life (: Just recording some thoughts down.
Now now. Don’t go over analysing.