I think I am not one to panic. Or something like that.
In times when people around me panic, I’m not. Like during exams.
I just turn quiet and my face goes really black without my knowledge. I’m not angry. Or panicking. I am actually just zoning out and concentrating on getting things done.
The brain is on absolute silent mode.
Though I do get slightly irritated when people starts creating more mess or BUT! i get irritated much more easily. Especially when I realised I am clearing “mess” created by other people’s lack of planning. I’ll rant but I’ll accept it and get things done.
Maybe because this is rather different from my normal behavior, people think that I am panicking? They tend to come up to me and go, “It’s okay. Don’t gan cheong.” Initially, I will try to explain to them that I am not. But after awhile, I just give up.
Why bother? I mean…Since they already think I am in a gan cheong state, they can’t really see otherwise. So I rather save time and energy and concentrate on getting things done.
Trust me. When I panic, you will know it.