[Music Monday] Girls’ Generation – Into the New World

Because we all need a earworm to kickstart the week! Plus, Monday is the only day in the week that starts with M. Iโ€™ll try to post non-Kpop songs occasionallyย :P

It’s a new beginning for me today (: So it’s apt to introduce this song.

This song makes me smile and tear at the same time. I don’t really know why but maybe because the song’s positivity touches me and encourages me (: Or maybe it’s because this is the song the group debuted with and looking at their success now makes me believe that anything is possible. Whatever it is, it’s a nice song (:

The fanchants are amazing too! Listen away! (Can’t find their debut stage ๐Ÿ˜ฆ )

My favorite part of the lyrics? I don’t know what to choose. But here’s some (:

ํŠน๋ณ„ํ•œ๊ธฐ์ ์„๊ธฐ๋‹ค๋ฆฌ์ง€๋งŒ (Donโ€™t wait for a miracle)
๋ˆˆ์•ž์— ์„  ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ ๊ฑฐ์นœ๊ธธ์€ (thereโ€™s a rough road in front of us)
์•Œ์ˆ˜ ์—†๋Š” ๋ฏธ๋ž˜๋ผ๋ฉด๋ฐ”๊พธ์ง€ ์•Š์•„ (with obstacles and future that canโ€™t be known)
ํฌ๊ธฐํ•  ์ˆ˜ ์—†์–ด๋ณ€ (yet I wonโ€™t change, I canโ€™t give up)

๋„ ์ƒ๊ฐ๋งŒํ•ด๋„ ๋‚œ ๊ฐ•ํ•ด์ ธ (Walking the many and unknowable paths)
์šธ์ง€ ์•Š๊ฒŒ ๋‚˜๋ฅผ ๋„์™€์ค˜ (I follow a dim light)
์ด์ˆœ๊ฐ„์˜ ๋Š๋‚Œ ํ•จ๊ป˜ ํ•˜๋Š” ๊ฑฐ์•ผ (Itโ€™s something weโ€™ll do together)
๋‹ค์‹œ ๋งŒ๋‚œ ์šฐ๋ฆฌ์˜ (to the end, into our new world)

I’ve already learned the dance for this song (: The video recording…Hmm. Not showing ๐Ÿ˜› But it’s quite a tiring dance cos there’s almost a step for every beat. Fun though!

Can’t wait for their concert in 2 weeks’ time!ย ๋‹ค์‹œ ๋งŒ๋‚œ,ย ์†Œ๋…€์‹œ๋Œ€!

my first love – physical books

After breakfast with Scotchey yesterday, I had some spare time so I took a walk and visited an old haunt – Kinokuniya @ Ngee Ann City (:

Old haunt because I would go there almost every day during my lunch hour back in the Perlini’s day. I would also visit the place once every few weeks during my uni days. I loved to go there to hunt for books to read. To soak in the silent buzz. To people watch. And this is going to sound creepy but…I love the smell of books there. It’s comforting.

I stopped visiting Kinokuniya since 2011? Mainly because I don’t have time and started buying books from Popular instead. And I’ve turned to reading ebooks instead. For clean “freak” like me, ebooks are definitely easier to manage (if you know what I mean) ;p

Anyway, I digress.

Yes, so I went to Kinokuniya yesterday. Nothing has changed (: The same familiar smell, the same buzz, the search machine is still at the entrance etc etc. Familiarity *sigh*ย I wandered around, taking books off the shelf, reading the back cover and checking out the price (the prices are the same! inflation has yet to hit books!). I like how everyone is just minding their business, looking for their next ‘adventure’. Reading a book is like going on an adventure, no?

I kept walking around and then…I saw the paperback version of the book that I was reading – Mortal Instruments. I picked it off the shelf, flipped to the page that I am currently at and started reading and reading and reading. The flipping of the pages, the weight of the book, the smell of the book, the texture of the page, the words on slightly yellow paper. I MISS THOSE FEELINGS!

While ebooks are awesome, it can’t be compared to the experience of reading a paperback. The words for example – the black words and white background (vice versa) are just hard on the eyes.

And there’s something about coming home after a loong day outside to see the paperback sitting on your bedside table waiting for you โค

So I made a decision….to cheer myself up (because I’ve been so moody these days), I am going to buy myself a book next week ๐Ÿ˜€

So….does anyone have a Kino card? Or a times card perhaps? ;p

what comes after interlude?

It seems not too long ago that I posted the picture below on Instagram with the caption,”the beginning of the interlude of my life.” 15 weeks has passed since then.

15 weeks ago.

Within that 15 weeks, I completed the dance class for SNSD’s Into the New World, completed/passed my CFP Module 4 (and hence, properly ending the previous chapter of my life), rested a little, completed a drama, started watching MasterChef again, finally flipped my mattress after 6 months, completed the dance class for SNSD’s Genie, read several books, started liking EXO, started dance class for SJ’s Mr Simple,ย took up a temp job as an admin assistant at Citigold for a short while, completed watching MasterChef, attended many lessons of Korean and am having a one-week break.

One week just breezed past like that. I didn’t do much. More reading, more me-time and more sleep (that never seems to be enough for me these days).

I’m starting work on Monday at a new place. I’m excited. I’m afraid too.

It’s doing something that I’ve wanted to do. Something I thought I will never get to do. Something I gave up hoping to do. But life works in funny ways. The more you want something, the less likely that it will happen. So yes. At age 26, I’m doing something that I wanted up and gave up hoping to do. Make sense?

But as per usual clauds style, I overthink and over worry. And the thing about finally being able to do something that you’ve wanted is the fear of realising that you actually suck at it. Now, that’s really scary.

Of course, there’s always the anxiety of meeting new people, of telling people of my picky eating habit and etc etc. There’s excitement mixed with all these anxiety too. But it’s more like 60-40. Hahaha!

Everyone seems to be so sure that I will do well in this new role though. The few that knows about it at least. So, I guess….that’s good right?


3 more days to go till I start working again. I really hope I don’t disappoint anyone, including myself.

Whatever it is, I’m back, world! ๐Ÿ˜€ย ๋‹ค์‹œ ๋งŒ๋‚œ ์„ธ๊ณ„!

Let this be the next chapter in my life?ย ๊ธฐ๋Œ€ํ•˜์„ธ์š”~

the silence.

I am sure there’s a similar post somewhere in this blog.

But yeah. I am taking a break this week before beginning at a new place (will blog about that later this week perhaps).

And it’s only during unemployment that I can enjoy the silence of…well, everything. Here’s my routine –

I will wake up at about 10-11ish. The house will be empty and quiet with everyone at work. I would read till about 1-ish before falling asleep again.

Then about 4ish, I will wake up for lunch, watch some daytime television or even Okto before retreating to the room to read again.

At about 9pm, I will leave my handphone in my room, go out to the living room, have dinner, talk to the family.

By about 11pm, the parents would have gone to sleep, the siblings will be in their room.

I like to lie down on the sofa and watch repeated dramas or brainless variety show. Maybe fall asleep in front of the TV.

At about 12-ish, I’ll bathe and go back into my room to either blog, read, watch some dramas or just click around on the internet.

It may sound lonely to some of you. Or even anti-social. But I really like these silent periods in my life.

I can stop thinking so much, stop worrying so much. Pause a little and….get in touch with how I feel.

With the amount of noise, information and people we meet everyday, we barely have time for ourselves. Everything must be quick, must be fast, must be now now NOW! Even our feelings have become that way. We get angry quickly, we forget that we are angry equally quick. We get happy quickly, that happiness is gone quickly too. Honestly, do we know what made us angry? Do we know what made us happy? If we don’t, how can we make sure that those things stays or doesn’t happen again?

So yes, I really treasure these silence. These lull period in my life. Where I can just sit around and do nothing. Just read. And I think what I enjoy most is that…I can feel nothing. Just a monotonous buzz and an never-ending ohmmmmm.

This week, I am not going away. This entire week is mine and I will keep it that way.


[Music Monday] Ladies’ Code – Bad Girl

Because we all need a earworm to kickstart the week! Plus, Monday is the only day in the week that starts with M. I’ll try to post non-Kpop songs occasionally ๐Ÿ˜›

I’ll be honest here. I don’t listen to K-Pop songs if they are not from the big groups like SNSD, EXO or maybe Miss A. But after seeing Kim Ri-Se on Running Man, I you-tubed for the song and it kinda got stuck in my head.

It’s been added to my playlist for less than a week and it’s already been played for 50 times.

The beat of the song is fast and of course, like all good K-Pop songs, there’s this one phrase that will get stuck in your head...”๋‚˜์œ ์—ฌ์ž์•ผ…..Bad Girl Bad Girl Bad Bad Girl..”

So, listen away (:

Looking at the lyrics, it kinda remind me of Britney’s “Overprotected” and “I’m a Slave 4 U”. Especially this part –

์•ฝํ•œ ์—ฌ์ž๋ผ๊ณ  (You’re a weak girl)
๋‚ด ๋ˆˆ์—” ์ฐฉํ•œ ์—ฌ์ž๋ผ๊ณ  (You’re a nice girl in my eyes)
๊ฐ€์—ฌ์šด ์—ฌ์ž๋กœ (A pitiful girl)
๊ทธ๋ ‡๊ฒŒ ๋ณด์ง€๋งˆ (Don’t look at me like that)
์ด๋Ÿฐ ๋‚˜๋„ ์ด์   ์ง€๊ฒจ์›Œ (I’m sick of this now)

This happens to be my favorite part of the song too (:

Dance-wise, it kinda remind me of Miss A’s Goodbye Baby. Especially during the ‘dance break’. I missed the course for this dance at Celine Jessandra ๐Ÿ˜ฆ So I am learning (or at least trying to) the chorus on my own. FIGHTING!

Oh yeah. The main singer reminds me of Miss A’s Jia! Don’t you think? Anyways, expecting more good stuff from this group ๐Ÿ˜€

seen and heard in the washroom.

Incident 1

On the way to the washroom, I had to walk pass corridor of clinics at Paragon.

One day, about 2 weeks ago, I saw a couple making out at the wall between two clinics. the girl was wearing a Toys’ R Us uniform.

They were oblivious to me walking pass twice (to the washroom and back) or that someone will be walking out from the clinics any time!


Incident 2

Today, I met the same girl in the washroom. And guess what? She’s arguing with her boyfriend on the phone.

OH: “You are supposed to LIKE me, not JUDGE me!” , “What. Are you saying I am bad?”

Woah. Trouble in paradise. I didn’t even retie my hair cos I think it’s not nice.

Incident 3

This is really typical clauds-luck.

You know how washrooms have the automated air freshener that sprays every few minutes? Well…..I was on my way out from the washroom yesterday and….

The air freshener sprayed. And….


URGH! I smelled like Paragon washroom the entire day T_T And I am pretty sure the face will breakout soon. Perfume and my face don’t mix.

On the bright side….At least it’s Paragon washroom so the smell would be rather atas?

Incident 4

This was really sweet.

A mum came into the washroom with a little girl. And while the mum was washing her hands, the girl went, “Mum, it’s ______ birthday. Can I buy her a present?”

Mum: What do you want to get her?

Girl: Hmmm. A flower. Can we buy on Monday?


I never thought going to washroom can be so interesting -.- HAHA!

i’m breaking out again :(

Remember the last time I had a breakout on my face?

That was 2 years ago. I took medicine to control the breakouts and it worked for about 6 months but once I stopped, the pimples started coming back. I’ve learned to accept the fact that my face will never be this clear again –

back in 2009. no photoshop done.

I have stopped taking the medicine and found that my skin was okay with Avene. But somehow, it’s starting again ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Look at this –

the horrors.

the horrors.

I have one huge pimples on the forehead, one right beside my nose and one or two more bubbling underneath.

I am not even going to talk about the small ones. The small ones that look so innocent but once they pop and you stick a 3M acne patch on, the amount of pus that comes out is shocking.

Knowing my skin, the pimples will start appearing on the other side of the face (in the exact same spot) soon. Yes, my skin seeks perfection. If you see a pimple on the left, you will also see one on the right in the exact spot. If you draw my face, mark the pimples out and then fold it into half, you will see that they the pimples kisses.

I need help ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Anyone has any good skin dermatologist to recommend? ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Help!